MAP OF MY SOUL

  It’s like winter sometimes.  That kind of deep, bone-quiet cold that settles into everything — the air, the sky, the spaces between words. The kind of cold that makes the world feel still and endless all at once. I think of him most during these times. When the trees are bare, when the light fades early, when the silence is louder than usual. There’s something about these moments that brings all the memories back, sharp and aching, like the wind against your skin. There was a time I thought I’d never stop feeling frozen inside — especially after I lost him. The one I loved the most. The one I built futures around in my head, only to be left holding pieces I didn’t know how to fit back together. And yet... someone stayed. Not the person I expected. Not the person I thought I needed. But someone who showed up anyway. Consistently. Quietly. Without asking for anything. He listened. To all the emotional ramblings. The sobs I couldn’t hold in. The moments I hated mysel...

  —a love letter to memory and moments that linger “You know it all / You’re my best friend / The morning will come again / Because no darkness, no season / Can last forever.” —BTS, Spring Day There’s a certain kind of silence that only comes with rain. Not the silence of absence, but the silence of something just beneath the surface— something trying not to speak, yet unable to stay quiet. I stood outside today. No umbrella. No rush. Just me, and the sky unraveling above like a story I’ve already read a hundred times— and still don’t understand. The rain came softly, not like a storm, but like a memory. It touched me the way nostalgia sometimes does— not all at once, not to break me. Just enough to remind me I’m still here. Just enough to remind me you’re not. There’s a moment, right before I close my eyes, where I feel it. The water tracing the edge of my jaw, lingering in the dip of my collarbone. It feels like your fingers— your breath— your presence stit...

Hey Internet Fam  So… I’ve decided to hit pause on social media until NEET next year. Yep, this is not a drill — I’m officially logging out to level up.  Don ' t get me wrong, I ' ll miss the memes, the  internet   folks  and  observing  strangers go from zero to cottagecore  in  a weekend. But I realized something: while I ' ve been double-tapping  my way  through life, time ' s been  flying  by like a K-pop dance break. And honestly? It ' s time I gave me the same energy  that  I ' ve been giving reels and random month-end dump posts. The Plan? Unwind & Rebuild. Like a Phoenix. Or a BTS Comeback.(THE BOYZZ ARE REUNITING, OH LORD !!!) This isn ' t  merely  about ghosting apps — it ' s about  being   present  for myself.  Connecting  with the  world.  Ditching   distractions so I can grow with  purpose . It ' s a  reboot,   through and through ....

You know when life  knocks  you with one of those  " are you serious right now ?"  moments—the  ones  that  leave  the wind out of your soul? Yeah. That 's   what  happened to me. A  huge , messy, heart- breaking   thing  that left me feeling like a crumpled sock under the bed. Unloved, unseen, lonely,  sort  of dusty. To say broken beyond repair would still be an understatement. I won ' t  get  into the heavy  stuff , maybe some another when I'm ready to open up properly. But, I'll say this isn ' t a story about the fall. This is a story about  rising   up. About  small  healing steps. About laughing  through  crying. I's still on the first chapter, but i know that I've started. About a Korean boy band  of  seven  sparkly  hearts and a message that somehow  landed   in  mine. Yep. BTS. The boys. The universe's emotional support ...