What makes my heart ... beat ?

Okay, first things first—I’m quirky. I overthink everything. Like, everything. I’ve been told I know too much, feel too much, and think too much… but let’s be real, I’m just living my Jungkook way into everything. If it’s too complicated, I’m down for it. If I can’t figure it out, I’ll try harder. I’m that person who’s got a million thoughts running through my head at all times, and I’m definitely the one replaying every awkward conversation five times in my brain (Jungkook style, but make it awkwardly cute).

But, hey, it’s who I am. And today, I’m sharing something raw, something deep. No filters. No fluff. Just me—overthinking, feeling everything, and choosing to live life on my terms.

So, let’s get into it... what makes my heart beat?

I dance till I’m beat. Not for anyone else, but for me. When the music drops, I’m not just moving—I'm alive in every beat. Every single step. There’s something liberating about losing yourself in the rhythm, about giving up all control and just being. No judgment. No expectations. Just me and the music. It’s like, for those few minutes, the world fades away, and all that’s left is the pulse of the beat, matching the pulse of my heart.

And then, there’s BTS. Oh yeah. I mean, can you even talk about "what makes you beat" without mentioning them? Their music, their energy, their vibe—it’s what keeps me going. BTS is more than just a band; it’s a movement. A feeling. When I listen to their songs, I’m reminded that it’s okay to fall apart, to have days when nothing makes sense, but most importantly, it’s okay to rise again. It’s that vibe that reminds me to live loud, live proud, and live for ME. And one day? You’ll see me in Seoul, standing in that crowd, screaming every lyric with my heart in my hands. It’s not just a dream—it’s a promise I’ve made to myself.

Capturing moments through a camera lens is my way of holding onto time. I take pictures like they’re pieces of my soul. The small moments, the big moments, the in-between moments—they all matter (just sometimes my gallery has no pics of myself but even the cute scrumptious tart I ate once so...) There’s something powerful about freezing time in a single shot. It's my way of making sure the world doesn’t move too fast. Because those pictures? They’ll be my story, long after the moment has passed.

But I’m also always learning. Always growing. I can’t stop. Whether it’s a new language, a new sport, or just diving into something I know absolutely nothing about, I’m in it. I want to know everything I can. I want to push myself to the edge of what I think is possible and then keep going. I think no one knows this but I'll definitely get drunk on the adventure sports adrenaline high. I'm a goner for them. I just love to evolve, even if I stumble (and yeahh... I stumble a whole awful lot). That’s how I grow. That’s how I become.

And travel? Oh, I’m going places. The world is my destination, maybe even the ISS or Mars one day!? Not because I want to escape, but because I want to find new pieces of myself in new places. It's all so much bigger than what I’ve seen so far, and I’m determined to explore every inch of it. There are so many cities, so many cultures, so many experiences waiting for me—and I’m ready for all of it.

But, more than anything, I’m chasing a dream that goes beyond adventure and discovery. I’m chasing a purpose. And that purpose is medicine. I’m obsessed. I’m not just fascinated by the science, the research, the theory—I’m obsessed with the impact. The real reason I’m in this field is the way it feels when you change someone’s life. When you give someone the gift of hope. When you help someone heal, and you see that smile—the one that says, “I’m going to be okay.” That’s why I push myself. That’s why I’ll never stop learning. That’s why I’m working to get there, one step at a time.

And hey, who knows? One day I might be slicing up people’s chests, fixing their hearts (with mine broken, kidding? not really LOL)—literally. Kind of like a hero, but with a scalpel instead of a cape. Sounds cool, right? (I promise, I’ll try not to make it too dramatic).

And here’s the most important part: I’m doing all of this for me. For the first time in my life, I’m not living for anyone else. Not for a boy, not for a friend, not for anyone else’s expectations. Just me. I’m choosing myself. I’m choosing to love myself—imperfections, flaws, quirks, and all. It’s messy. It’s hard. But it’s real.

And just like BTS says, I’m going forward to speak myself, face myself, choose myself, and love myself. It’s time to stop hiding behind anyone else’s standards and live out my truth, in all its messy, beautiful, raw glory.

If you’re reading this, take it as a sign to choose yourself, too. It’s your life. It’s your beat. Stop living for others, and start living for YOU. Because at the end of the day, the only person you owe it to is yourself.

We’re all figuring it out. We’re all stumbling, growing, learning, and sometimes, we fall. But if you keep going, if you keep choosing yourself every day, you’ll find your rhythm. And that’s the beat that’ll carry you through.

We're all a lil beat... but we're still standing right ?

With luv,

Aady